Juz a quick post.
Today was a great day.
At least i finished my homework.
Left the Chemisty that have to be handed in.
Other then that, there was nothing.
Then this week have so many tests.
So got to study for them.
Tomorrow there is ADC.
HAHA.
That would be interesting.

So yar.
Thats all i can say.
Other then that, my grandma is feeling better.
Yea.
Then today E-Maths lesson miss ma like very angry.
Until she don even want to sign the diary.
So sad.
WAAA.
=.="
ok
Then there was the SS worksheet that had to be hand in.
Haha.
And i did hand in.
So ok.
Nothing much now.
Ok.
I will post more nxt time.
BYE?!!

NEW BLOG SKIN

Hi one and all.
This is a new blog skin.
Sucky lar.
But i will make it better when i have the time.
So bye for now =D

Happy Valetine's Day

Hi one and all.
Like long time did not post like that.
But over this few days, my family in a mess.
So now then i posting.
Understand?
Anyway, over this few days, i realised that, you know, my parents are not the worst i have seen.
The problem with them is that they dont know what i wan, and i dun know what they mean.
So misunderstanding everyway.
In fact it can all clear up, and once it is, i will realise that my parents... ROX =D YEA!!!!
I actually already do.
My parents agreed to let me use an hour of computer everyday.
Most of the time i end up exceeding the time.
They dun scold you know?
So i think that i should do something in return.
That is why, i am going to clear up ALL my homework today and tomorrow.
Or at least finish most of it.
80% of it at least. =D

Ok. Enough of my blehs and blahs.
Now something new.
PICTURES.
PICTURES OF MY LAST YEAR THE CONCERT.
Charmaine wanted to see the pictures so badly man. LOL
So charmaine? Here they are.


This picture yor, i dun know the girl standing on the right.
But the young lady(who is not really young) in the middle is my teacher.
My piano teacher in fact.
The girl standing on the left gave me a lot of encouragement in the concert.
My piano song actually sux. but she told me that i cannot breakdown, AND I DID NOT.
THX =D


This girl is AMAZING MAN!!!
SHE PLAY A SONG THAT IS FASTER THEN ANY SONG(except the flight of the bumble bee) I HAVE SEEN!!
Yea.
She must have practiced VERY hard. T.T


The four ladies lar.
SO ........... RITE? =.=


Left Hand Side of the picture. That young lady is my teacher's sister.
HAHA.


My teacher no CHEESING so bad of her =.=
The two in front like acting cute =.=
JOKING =D
Haha.
i feel so bad now T.T


This one hor, the hand very extra to me lar.
I mean.
Two person taking photo and then got a hand ..............
SO WEIRD LAR.


The YEA-WE-LOOK-COOL-MAN post.
That is what i call it.
The YEA-WE-LOOK-COOL-MAN post.
hehe.
Vry long name rite? =D


How do i look?
Handsome?
Weird?
Retarded?
Cool
Or what?
Pls vote at the poll after you have seen all the picture k? =D


How i look with this young lady? =.=
She not really young lar.
Juz look young.
Yea
She is 26 this year.....


My cher very TALL lor =D
So nice rite?
HAHA
SO TALL
SO SO SO TAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL


At least she is taller.
Yar.
Looks more better.


The mission impossible girls. O.O
Lol.
White and black dress girls playing mission impossible.
New fashion haha.!!!.
Nice rite?
NOT WEIRD LOR.
Imagine M.I.5 with a main character as a girl.
THAT WOULD BE NEW FASHION MAN!!!!!


Funny rite?
A camera man taking a picture of three girls and one happen to be taking a picture of two of the three girls.
HAHA. HA. HA.
LAUGH LAR!!!!
=(
LAME.


Is that me at the back?
Lol.
O.O
HOW RUDE OF THEM
=.="
This is so lame rite?
A few more to go.


Doesn't that guy standing at the front of the four of us look cute?
SIMPLY CUTE =.=" =D


Erms.
Dun think too much.
She juz wan to hold the flute.
=.=


Erms.
This one.
My Cousin brothers inside.
Yep.
Like this.
Ok


DONE!!
Poll before you leave can?
I will appreciate that.
THX

ok.
GTG
CYA =D

Yep.
I am posting after coming back from the hospital.
Sleeping liao soon.
I hope i can sleep soon.
Really.
Cos i dun wan to wake up late tmr.
Ai.

Grandma coming back from the hospital to spend her last hours of her life.
*cry*
That is the unavoidable fact.
So i will say it.
Cannot avoid this part of every single humans' life.
We will hve to just accept it.

WAAAAAA!

I had a bad day(week)

First.
Tag replies.

evangline!:Thx for pointing out. And thx for visiting. I will not cry again lar.

DIn: Hi. I dun know who you are, but.......

h.uixian: Hi =D Thx for the encourgement =D And THX FOR VISITING.

SHEENA: Thx for the advice. I will not cry nxt time.

So anyway.
Thx to all the ppl who visited.
Some might ask what happened yesterday?
Well.
There was ADC pre-course training.
So as usual the basic drill until we can do it properly.
Which means raising our legs to 90 degrees when we are marching on the spot. (realise i am not using the command. I dun know how to spell them)
So, of course, with my internal injury that i cannot do anything about, i had to contiune to put in my best to rasie my leg to 90 degrees.
So there we are trying to get to 90 degrees and then Paul, our staff, said that i am the only one who cannot do that after something.
I mean, I have an injury lar.
Then after that i tried to tell him that i am not the only one who is not raising 90degrees.
But Paul take it like i am arguing(pardon me for my "powderful" spelling) with him.
So he made us drop 20.
So i felt so bad lar.
Made the whole platoon(correct spelling?) do 20 push-ups.
I felt really bad.
And combine with what ever had happened in this week, I really cannot stand it and just... just... just cried.
I really felt very bad.
Very very bad.
And now i don even know if my grandma is ok.
Thank god that there is only one hard homework to do.
Which is E-Maths.
So not THAT bad lar.
And yar.
That why i cried.
It was mixed feeling.
So it is completely NOT Paul's fault.
I mean, it is normal that the Staff is angry when someone argue with him or her.
But i still feel bad.
Even till now.
My sincere apology to the ADC memebers for all the trouble i had caused.
I will try my very best the nxt time.
Let me say this again, i am NOT giving up on ADC.
And i will certainly not let anyone stop me from passing.
I wan to pass this course.
At least this could help me show ppl that i can do this.
THAT I AM A MAN!!!
AND I AM NOT CRYING AGAIN.
I PROMISE MYSELF!!!
YEA!
=D
Thx for all your help friends, classmates, ex-classmate, bandmates and band seniors, Mr Ang (former school consellor) for helping me pull through and break free from my 4 1/2 years of insults.
And of course, for those who don know, i had been crying almost everyday in that 4 1/2 years.
I had been through a hell of a time and i do not wan to experience it again.

Thx to everyone.
REALLY

Cleared my homework and feeling all rite

WEEE!!!
The chemistry test was ok lar.
Not as bad as i thought it would be.
So yea.
Thank God!
And today, i manage to clear all the homework.
You know how happy i am?
It means that i now have the weekend homework only.
And then it is E-maths only and history.
At the moment.
So if i can concentrate, i will finish in like wow?
30 mins i hope. =D

..............................
SS test tmr.
I have not revise.
But not that bad lar.
Can one lar i believe.
Just hope that i pass that is good enough liao lor.
One more thing.
I realise that my bag is getting heavier and heavier and heavier everyday.
Maybe it is becos of my body aching.
My right side of the body is still aching.
And i really dun know how am i going to survive ADC traing tmr.
Can hardly do push-ups lor.
But i have to do it man.
I dun like to be called a slacker.
My friends can dun care, but i cannot take anymore of that.
Reason?
I survivied 4 years of primary(pri 4 - 6) and secondary(sec 1 - mid sec 2) and now that i am alive, i dun wan to be insulted again.
Many times, i tried to hurt myself, but i don wan that to happen to me again lar.
I dun wan to hurt myself.
Put it simply.
I know, i know, everyone rather see me die.
......................................
Ai.
Maybe that is the best way for now?

Feeling kinda emo

Hi all.
Very moody this week.
My grandma fell last Sunday and i like reached home 12 something the nxt day.
I like really tired lar.
So tired.
And then i did not do my hw.
Then some ppl say i did not do the homework.
I am hopeless
All this things.
You know how it feels rite?
And then i cannot fall out during the ADC cos later ppl will say that i am a slacker.
But my leg was like so painful.
So have to endure.
Then there was once i almost cried.
I really wan to.




Is my life that hard to live?
Could i die in peace?
All this qns always flow into my mind when things like that happens.
......................

All Crap lar

Hi one any all.

School started off good for me today.
Got to revise for my tests.
HOWEVER???

E-maths test was CRAP!!!
Lost 12 marks le.
But can pass.

Geography is a failure.
I draw wrong thing.
And now i am sure that i will fail it.
My first test.
So much for scoring for geography.
To pull the marks up now?
I have to score well for the other tests.
And there is a physic test TMR.
AI!!!!

And my leg is aching.
even now.
As i am posting.
As i am siting down.

Went to popular after school today.

With josiah and pesdy.

Bought only two

Yep.

A stapler and this thing.

Yea.

Thats all.

And i not suppose to drink ice water?

But i bought bubble tea.

So cold the drink.

But it was yummy.

Mango.

And dun know why my leg is still aching after i saw a doctor.

So anyway?

I have to do drills still.

I dun wan to be the slacky guy i am.

I dun wan to be late for falling in liao.

I WAN A CHANGE.

I WILL MAKE AN EFFORT TO DO IT.

I HAVE TO!!!

OR NOT NO ONE WILL RESPECT ME.

I HAVE TO.

YEA.

Thats more like the guy who wants to... to...

nvm

bye for now ok?

Mood? HAPPY!!!

Hi one and all.
Its after CNY.
Hope you all have a lot of ang bao.
=D
Well.
Went out with Josiah's EV gang on friday.
Last friday.
Yea.
It was josiah's birthday.
So now he is offically 15 years and 5 days young.
Yea.
Haha.
Lol.
So we went to pizza hut lar.
Then eat there.
I had like so much cheese on my pizzas.
Of course that was a must.(CHEESE ROCKS WITH PIZZAS AND NOTHING ELSE FOR ME. YAY!!!)
So after that, the was the cake.
There was strawberrys on the cake.
And other fruits.
All not fresh.
The strawberry had mould on it.
SO digusting.
But it did not affect the cake.
So it was ok.
Lol.
Ruixin was there too.
Tried to push her together with clement.
But she don wan.
So nvr lar.
And then there was a picture.


CHEEZE!!!!
After that we went to play bball.
Basket ball.
But of course, i not very sporty one.
So went to play at the playground.
With Ruixin and her friend.(I AM NOT FLIRTING)
Cos there was nothing to do.
So we went to try balancing.
You know rite?
The senior czitern(pardon me for my spelling -__-) thing.
So we tried balancing.
And yar.
This is the picture.


Ok.
Retarded picture?
Yes of course.
I look retarded in pictures anyway.
So yar.
Thats all for now.
Bye.

A DEEP CUT IN MY HEART

Omg.
I am feeling so hurt now.
I am. I am.
I feel like crying you know.
Maybe ******(someone) is rite.
I cannot ever reverse all tat i hve done.
I juz wan to forget about what i am doing...........

NO ONE KNOW HOW IT FEELS TO BE ISOLATED, NOT BEING TREATED LIKE THE OTHERS.
HOW IT HURTS MY HEART.
WHY CANT THEY GIVE ME A CHANCE.
TO LET ME CHANGE.
WITH THEIR HELP!?
NO ONE KNOW HOW IT FEELS MAN.
REALLY.
IT FEELS SO CRAPPY.
I HATE MYSELF.
I HATE MYSELF TO THE CORE.
I WAN TO DIE.
DUN WANT TO LIVE ANYMORE.
I TRY SO HARD.
AND THEN ALL I GET IN RETURN IS ALL ONLY CRAP.
I JUZ GET SCOLDED AND SCOLDED AND INSULTED AND INSULTED.
AND I JUZ RETARDED TO THINK THAT I CAN DO IT?
I don't know.




SOMEONE GIVE ME AN ANSWER.
*cry*
*cry*
*cry*
*cry*
*cry*
*cry*
*cry*
*cry*
*cry*

Its a major ouchie D=

HI one and all.
Just coming to see my blog.
Then decided to post.
My right half of my body is causing me some serious problems.
Its making me limp.
And yea.
I had a bad fall.
And i am NOT going into it.
Anyway.
I and just here to post.
I had a bad fall and it hurts a !@#!@@#$ lot.
But it will heal.
So i will be patient and wait.
And yea.
Bye

And i updated a few things.
Pls read.









Ty

Confused sad and crying

ARHHH!!!!
I dun know what is going on in my life now a days.
I just got scolded by daddy yesterday.
Cos me to like blank out totally?
Yea.
It was that bad.
After i like blank out?
I was like crying and crying and crying.
I was so moody.
Ai.
I dun know what to do now.
There is a mess in band?
And i am messed up at home?
And i feel so stupid?
yar.
At least the mess in band is easing.
Yea.
That is what i am happy about.
OK.
Bye.

ARHHH

posting?
I am like so surprise?
And i am on guard.
My mum can see everything i am typing.
Ai.
This blog like so little ppl come
=.="
Such a bad start for the year lar.
Today band was ok.
But i was like emo for the whole sectional time and have not mood to play. Hate it mean.
Almost cried.
But like no one care like that.
Not that i nid anyone to care lar.
But it is like SO irritating when i am called a slacker.
Maybe some ppl know very well what is going on in my fucked up messy family.
But not everyone do.
So it still comes back to the same thing.
Ai.
But at least it is better in school now then Sec1-2.
I think that really, if this was to happen when i am Sec1-2 then i am going to have died.
So like messed up now.
I dun know if i am walking the correct path.
Dun know.
Dun know.
Dun know if i am doing the correct thing...
Dun know what is going on.
So fucking messed up.
Dun wan to die and dun wan to live.
I have to choose. But dun know which way to go.
And i dun understand why is it that my parents must go against me helping out the band or something like that.
I dun know why.
Everytime i on a call with a band major to ask about something(of course i get nothing from them. they cannot tell me too much oso cos me not in council) my parents say i am wasting money.
I know lar.
I know that my discipline today sucked to the core.
One of my worst discipline days.
So yea.
Very emo.
Sry.
But... ARHHHHHH I DUN KNOW lar.
NID SOME PEACE AND QUIET.
Maybe going to my diary is the best now.
See if you all can find my diary.
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Dear diary .............................
.............................
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.............................
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.............................
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No one cares about me.......................
My parents treat me like SHIT........................
SOMEONE HELP ME PLS PLS PLS.......................
So sad lar........................


Hais

Second day of school

Hi one and all.

First of all.
To reply tags.
Zhiming: OK. I re-linked you liao.
Xin Zhen: Really sry, but can you tell me who are you? Cos we like know we are in each others' class only this year........ON a second thought. I think i know u. Nvm i will find out soon.
Dania: Ok THZ!!!!!

Thats all for now.
Ok.
Down to the post.

To one and all.
I am now the chairman of 3e2.
I dun know how that happened.
But, yea thats me.
And not that i dun wan to be Chairman.
I am not sure if i can lar.
But i am willing to try it out.
If i cannot do the job properly, i will just step down.
But i am really really willing to give this new role a try.

Ok lar.
So far so good.
But school was a bit sucky.
The good thing.
E-Maths is Miss Ma JJ teaching us.
That means i will not be late-handing-in my work.
So that is a good thing.
The bad thing.
I dun hand up work i will get double scolding.
In class and then in band...

That aside.

So our cher for SS and Elective history was NOT Mdm tang.
Very good.
In fact they and MDM Wan(Yes miss wan is married) for SS and Mrs Sng for elective history.
Both chers very good at teaching so no prob there.

MT was a WOWER.
We finished the first chapter in 1hr 10mins.
Around there.
Amazing rite?
And we are like half way through our second chapter today liao.

Physic and Chemisty was VERY good.
Although i must abmit that i was almost sleeping in physic.

Recess was the favourite of course.

English.
ROX.
Mrs V and Mdm Choo all knows how to communicate with the class and they know very well how to make the class FUN and VERY FUN.
And we learn too.
Haha.

Ok. Thats all for today k?
I got to go now .
Got to do my no.1 uniform.
Tomorrow i am performing.
So bye yea.

First day of school

First day of school COMPLETELY sux.

Why?

Cos i got switched out of my seat.

Now i like sitting behind Joclyen.

Wish she dun tease me or what.

LOL.