Whatever the case... I just want everyone to know that whatever happens to me in the next few days... I will always love my friends and family. To be honest i have never been anywhere close to death. Yet today i can just feel it crashing down on me. Since Monday i had been on an emotional ride for no apparent reason. My brain is focused on worrying then doing what i should be doing. I was stressed out and literally going through hell in my brain.
Tuesday was a great break from all the shit because there was band. But definitely it was short lived since i had a test at 4pm and i had to leave early.
Im barely holding myself together these days. Yesterday was no exception. Spending a whole day at home really make me go crazy i guess. I tried distracting myself in any way possible but nothin worked. I needed someone to talk to badly. All i had was my dam computer.
I need to sit face to face with someone and talk everything out but i cant seem to find anyone... I was alone... I still am as i am typing this.
Today is a Thursday yet i am having insomnia and thinking about death. I had not been in this position for very long and it is just suddenly coming back all of the sudden. I have nvr ever felt like killing myself more than i am feelig now. Keep wanting and having the desire to get sleepkng pills and swallowing a whole lo of them.
Gou know what screw it all i dont give a shyt about typing properly altdy i want to say goodbye to this fcking fcke up an blpody cruel worl.
WTF HAVE I DONE WRONG TO BE SO PATHETIC AT THIS STAGE OF MY LIFE WHAT WHAT WHAT HAVE I DONE... IF U WAN ME U BLOODY GRIM REAPER TAKE ME NOW MAN HY AM I FCKING SUFFERING SO MUCH NEED ME TO REALLY PHYSICALLY CRY THEN U HAPPY IS IT... Im suffering in pain here but just no one no one cares...
