Yes, again.
At this point of time in my life, i ask myself at times, what am i doing?
What do i believe in?
What am i living for?
Even if i were to understand my true purpose in my life, what am i supposed to do?
I'm starting to lose faith, i'm starting to lose hope, i'm starting to think that i canot believe anymore.
Everyone has dreams, and then there are others who think that they are constantly living in a dream.
Inception as they call it, a dream made up of fragments of your memories.
Yet are all of these real?
The question is rhetorical, and the answer, obvious.
People think that it would be easier to just end their lives, to release themselves from all the pain they are going through, to escape into another realm.
They want to escape reality instead of facing it.
I, am one of those people.
And it is on these days, on these kind of mornings that i think back at my life, and ask myself, "Why the hell am i so useless?"
I often think to myself, why do i keep running instead of trying to move on to the next step in my life?
Why do i keep looking back?
Why am i being such a loser?
I often ask myself if i have anyone to lean on if i need support in my life, if anyone at all would be there for me.
I often lose myself trying to find the answer to that question.
And it is only this morning, that i realise, if i don't take control of my own life, i will lose everything that i already have.
If i don't wake up from this dream i have put myself into a little over a year ago, i will not survive.
Yet having said that, am i ready to face reality?
Am i strong enough to do this right?
Can i overcome my greatest enemy, myself?
Can I?
