8 Days to go

Yeap. It is now the end of my week.
Intense weekend really...
I still have to finish up a few things before i can sleep.
Got to get my formal attire for the presentation tomorrow as well.
And then there is the maths quiz... I'll have to revise that quickly.

Tough weeks ahead honestly.
Its 8 Days to my special day...
But i have so many test coming up.
A lot to catch up for sure.
But i know i will make it!

Just hope that this year will be a little different...
Hope everything will go well.

May the force be with me!

And of course, thanks for all those who are visiting my blog!
May the force be with you all!
Remember, no matter how much pain you are going through, how little hope there seem to be in whatever you do, push on.
I believe in everyone and i believe that everyone will make it.

PUSH ON!

NEVER GIVE UP!

BELIEVE IN MIRACLES!

BELIEVE IN YOURSELF!

Hakuna Matata

My Song of the Week is already playing :D
The very song you hear when you enter this blog (assuming that you do not have any pop-up blocker or disabled Java) is Hakuna Matata.
I chose the one from the original movie, The Lion King.
 

SONG LRYICS

Hakuna Matata! What a wonderful phrase

Hakuna Matata! Ain't no passing craze

It means no worries for the rest of your days

It's our problem-free philosophy

Hakuna Matata!

Hakuna Matata?

Yeah. It's our motto!

What's a motto?

Nothing. What's a-motto with you?

Those two words will solve all your problems

That's right. Take Pumbaa here

Why, when he was a young warthog...

When I was a young wart hog

He found his aroma lacked a certain appeal

He could clear the savannah after every meal

I'm a sensitive soul though I seem thick-skinned

And it hurt that my friends never stood downwind

And oh, the shame 

He was ashamed

Thought of changin' my name 

What's in a name?

And I got downhearted 

How did ya feel?

Everytime that I...

Hey! Pumbaa! Not in front of the kids!

Oh. Sorry

Hakuna Matata! What a wonderful phrase

Hakuna Matata! Ain't no passing craze

It means no worries for the rest of your days

It's our problem-free philosophy

Hakuna Matata!

Hakuna Matata! Hakuna matata!

Hakuna Matata! Hakuna matata!

Hakuna Matata! Hakuna matata!

Hakuna Matata! Hakuna--

It means no worries for the rest of your days

It's our problem-free philosophy

Hakuna Matata!

(Repeats)

I say "Hakuna"

I say "Matata"

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Every song has a meaning

I chose this song for this week.

It's simple. We Singaporeans live in a stressful envoirnment.

We students have to deal with the constant onslaught of homework and countless exams.

Although we cannot deny the fact that there is often sufficient time for us to do our work, to revise for our exams, it is an undeniable fact that we get stressed out.

We often dont have time to sit down and just watch a movie to just chat with our friends.

Adults can hardly stop working now in our tough society.

My mum often say that it is impossible to get a job now without a proper Full Time University degree.

I cannot help but feel just so super sad about it.

I look at America, where people do what they love for a living. 

Well at least 60% of the country do, i believe.

Their economy may be in a crsis, yet their people are united as one.

They have each other to lean on if they are out of breath. 

They can depend on one another easily since they have a community to live with.

Yea there'll definitely be quarrels among the community.

But it is obvious, they live with Hakuna Matata in mind.

A problem free philosophy.

A stress free life.

No worries for the rest of your life. 

Isn't that something everyone kinda wish to have?

Think about it from another point of view.

Perhaps it is impossible to have a problem free life, yet what would life be without happiness?

If you had all the money in the world, yet you have no one to talk to, no one to share your wealth with, no one to be happy with, what would be the point of living?

So to all those people feeling downcasted out there, for whatever reason, stop.

Hakuna Matata! Face every new day with pride and be brave to take on all the challenges.

Live itself is a gift, dont waste it.

Have a great day!

Look forward to tomorrow, because i believe in a better tomorrow :D

There will be miracles

With the blink of an eye, the second term of my 1st year 2 semester is coming to an end.
What have i accomplished this term? Or maybe this sem as a whole, what have i accomplished?
I think i can safely say that i haven't accomplished anything...

I failed 5 of 6 common test papers
Yea i manage to get myself out of the deep shit i gotten myself into.
I dare say that for now, i have passed all of my modules.
But the final exams are coming.
Believeing that i'll make it will not be enough...

Miracles don't just happen.
You not only have to believe, you have to work for it.
You need not force yourself to study 24/7, but make sure that you put in the effort to study when you are studying.

What am i talking about....
Believing? I don't even know how to believe anymore....
I believed that i'll make it. This whole semester, i spent so much time believing.

I believed that i will make it.
I believed that i'm not worthless.
I believed that i will be able to do what i like.
I believed i'll be good in music.
I believed i can play games well and not be a noob...

Now, i don't know what to believe anymore...
I'm not good at studies, i'm not good at music, i'm not good at games...
I feel insecure when i try to make new friends, and i feel so depressed because i'm worried of being betrayed...
I only trust those i hold close to my heart, those i truly love as my best friends...
Yet i'm worried that i'll wake up one morning to find them all gone, to find that i'm forgotten because of how worthless i am...
I try my best to finish up my projects, and i try not to get distracted.
I put in my best, yet i know very well it is less than enough.
Every time i tell myself, "You got to believe, you know things will get better, you got to try your best now, or you'll never get anyway."

But things ain't getting better... 

I thought they will, but i get distracted by the TV when i'm in a game.
I become a burden because of my own weakness for being unable to concentrate.
I thought they will, but when it comes to projects, i just wanna slack.
I become worthless because of my own weakness for not being able to overcome myself, to defeat the devil within.

I believed things will get better, but they are not...

What am i to look forward to?
An empty future?

I don't know anymore.
I lost myself in the process of trying to find a better me...
I tried to be everything i'm not, and now i'm gett from bad to worst.

I have it better than many others.
I have a roof over my head every night when i close my eyes.
I have pocket money every month for me to spend.
I have a piano at home.
I don't have to worry about unstable internet connection.
I don't have to worry about the electricity bills or water bills.
I never have to worry about food.

What else could i ask for?

I only ask for myself to have the strength to overcome all odds.
I hope to make miracles happen.
I don't want to be a worthless bastard.
I want to have friends to talk to.
I don't want to be just playing my piano at home.
I want to be able to perform with a band and have a standing ovation.
I don't want to be a noob in games.
I want to strive to be the best.

Is this too much to ask from myself?

At the end of the day, i still believe.
I still believe that one day, i will be the best, that i will wake up.
Wake up from this dream of mine to inspire others.
To inspire others and tell them stories of what a failure i was and how i overcomed all odds.
All odds are against me now, i know.
Yet i know very well, that i'm a strong peron.
A strong person that will crash through all my obstacles and come out victorious.

At the end of the day, i believe.
And when i believe, i know that one of these days, i will pull through with my own strength and my beliefs.

And on that day, there will, be miracles