Mixture of feelings

I hope to chase my dreams...
I want to take to the sky...
I want to be able to look at myself and say to myself, "Great! You have done a good job!"

I want to learn music, i want a PhD in music. ( Yes for real i want it)
But is it really what i want?
I have talked to myself so many times about this.
But sometimes i just don't know what i really want...

For sure i want Swiss Winds to become the top band in Singapore again.
But what about myself?
I want to give them all the help i can, but what do i want to do for myself?

And then the is the usual Wayang with my parents...
I already cancelled one Piano lesson last week...
And now u tell me i haven practised enough...
What you want me to cancel another lesson?
Might as well just stop my piano lessons....

Music is the only thing that i'm doing now that i really really love...
And you seem to want to take it from me too....
Yes maybe i have not practised enough....
But the last few days i have practised more then 5 hours already...

Yar it is little for someone who is having a holiday....
I'll definitely practise more and more over the next few days...
But i need that dam lesson...
I don't know my fingering and stuff....
HOW TO PRACTISE....

Well... At least i have my juniors to talk to...
I must never forget that...
And my friends too...
I guess thats a plus point in my life then...