Emotions running wild...

Sometimes i don't understand why i love to just go back to the past...
Its the end of semester 1 and i feel drained out, tired, and everything else...

Just not at all happy...
And i have no idea why...
Perhaps it's because Swiss Winds the band stepping down on 10th September???
Feel so down...
So unlike my character...
I should be extremely happy when it's the holidays
But not this one...

Or maybe i'm just thinking and preoccupying my mind with too many things...
My biggest problem now into my 17th year of life on Earth.
I always love to think too much.
Sometimes i do very unnecessary thinking about things that are not even happening.
Mind running too wild...

I think about the past so often nowadays.
Thinking about Swiss, all the friends and all those jokes and bullying and teasing i had to pull through...
All those tough times i encountered in my secondary school times with band and stuff...

And then after that there is the NDP 2011.
Finally got the chance to be in NDP for once with Swiss Winds...
But it might very well just be the last time... I don't even know if i have enough time next year to go back.

Yea...
Emotions really running wild...
Confused about nearly everything there is.

Stressed out for nothing...
I dont even know what is happening to me now.
Its just like what Min Jiang told me...
I have too much on my plate.
And i obviously cannot finish it...

Haiz...

Confused beyond words....