Why?

Is it impossible to please everyone?
I try so hard to help out, but no one understand all the shit that i ever go through...
So many times, i wish that death could be an understand to end this...
But so many times, i found another way out... a much more painful, yet meaningful way...
Why must this always happen to me?!
Why cant people just accept ME for who i am?

Does ANYONE at all understand the pain of having a knife stabbed STRAIGHT at your heart?
ANYONE at all?!
I have gone through so much in my life, and i don't even feel appreciated at all...
Is this how i have to spend the better half of my life?!

Or maybe i'm just expecting too much from everyone...
Maybe i should just shut up and just take in everything and lock everything into myself...

Just how long will it take for anyone to understand my pain...